Mary Magdalene

I have undergone a very significant life change in the past week.

I am graduating this coming May. God willing.

I switched from the 5-yr architecture degree to the 4-yr architectural studies degree. The reason being I know I am not supposed to do architecture whenever I graduate. I have been feeling this for quite some time but it was very hard to go through with this decision. It does not make any sense in worldly logic. I just spent 3.5 years of my life working toward something- becoming an architect- and now I am giving it up. If you were Judas watching me make that decision, you would probably say, "What a waste of 4 years! Why didn't you go through with your plan and earn a lot of money to give to the poor?" But the poor I will always have. The more important thing is having Jesus.

I know that he wants me to travel for his kingdom. And find work on the side as I go. This is exciting to me- I will probably have a whole range of unusual jobs! Hopefully creative/design jobs.

Life is weird. I feel the weight of change. I am not living on campus anymore... doors have not been opening... I feel like I'm not doing anything... except hanging out with Jesus.

He said I'm in a "Mary Magdalene" season. Breaking my bottle of oil and pouring it over his feet and just adoring him. It feels amazing having something costly to give him. Jesus keep giving me costly things so that I can keep breaking them at your feet. I break my "archtiecture bottle," and it is not a waste.

For the most part I am just wanting to be with him. But every few days I get these random energy shoots all through my body that are shouting, "Share the good news! share the good news!" This is how I like it. I am not living to share the good news, I'm living to know him. But then again I can't help sharing the good news.

But I had this realization. He doesn't want my service. He doesn't want my ministry. He wants my heart. And he is doing everything he can to get all of my heart. Including discipline.... persecution.... he is revealing my depravity...like a laser cutting through a diamond, making it pure, refining with fire... he is revealing the depths of my heart... because he wants it all.

Let all the glory go to the Lord Jesus Christ. He is coming soon. I feel it. I feel his kingdom coming soon. This world is nothing. It is passing away. Seek the things that are above... where Christ is... seated at the right hand of God. Seek the kingdom of God because it will never fade away!